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Monday, 9 February 2009

Live for today!!

Assalamu alaykum,
after my sad post few days ago, I received a touching email and a lovely phone call.
I feel blessed to have such sisters around. Hamdulillah Rabbi 'Alamin. Indeed to Him belongs the Heaven and the Earth and all that it contains. Mash'Allah!

I don't want to give up home education, it is not my real aim, nor it is a wish inside me. Far from that!! I wish to carry on as much as Allah will bless me with it.
I do feel very happy with home education and feel blessed that I can do it and that my kids are gaining so much.
Yes, I would love that things could be easier for me and kids. I would love that my dh is around more often to spent time with my kids and help a bit more even if only with doing shopping or run some errands for me.
But this is my test and as I have already said in reply to a sister I shall be strong and try to take one day at the time.
A sister called the day after I wrote that message , in fact she said she tried to call me all the day before just as I wrote the sad post but my mobile was off.
She stated so beautifully that I should live for today and it looks like a simple advice by a dear sister. But it was really what I needed and I appreciated her nasiha so much. I feel I have been ungrateful and also have I put my total trust in Allah? Islam teaches us to put our trust only in Allah, He is our Creator after all!! After the call I hugged my kids strongly just as the sister was advising me to do over the phone and I felt better as I could touch with my heart and my hands the love that Allah has for me and my family all. Jazakillah ukhti, you know who you are. Love fisabilillah to you.
I feel that things can only go better from now and I am recharging by teaching my kids and guess what? cooking!
Don't know why, don't ask! I hate cooking but these days helped me to relax and feel better about my life.
May Allah forgive me for being so ungrateful and may He guide me and my family to what is good, always.Amin.

Later that day I received another call. It was late evening and I was really tired. I looked at the phone screen and realized it was my dh id. I picked up. I don't know why, still I am here wondering, he said just a beautiful thing. He was saying how grateful he was that my kids are home educated and how happy he is that I can teach them at home. He recognized the fact that I have taken up a big challenge and that he is sorry he cannot be around to help. Allah As-Sami'.
It brought tears to my eyes and opened up a new way for me and my kids....Allah Al Fattah!!

Just to finish this post, I'd like to make a special du'as for all the sisters that want to home educate but cannot for their own personal tests, may Allah open a way for you and bring you relief from your hardships.Amin.
For those who you that are looking to start with home education, you will start something amazing and so many rewards and blessings are awaiting for you just around the corner! Don't be afraid to start or indeed to take up this challenge, put your trust in Allah and live for today.
love fisabilillah
x

8 comments:

ummraiyaan said...

Salaam sis!
What a beautiful post masha'Allah! Your post has shown that Allah's words are always true...'Verily after hardhip is ease.' What a beautiful call from your husband masha'Allah (I bet you didn't expect that!). So my dear sis, never ever despair for Allah is not a Lord that breaks a soul through tests. Rather he tests us to MAKE us stronger!

Wsm,
Umm Raiyaan x

Rainbow In The Grey Sky said...

Aslamu alakum sister
After the hardship will come the ease alhamduilah you feel brighter and others recognise your efforts, which is so important sometimes. InshaAllah things will only get better for you Allah is indeed Karim.

Some times we are passing life in a cloud of routine and not making time to nourish ourselves , we all need support from time to time and i am happy allah blessed you with carring sisters who can do just that, may they be under the shade on the day when it matters along with you ameen.

It is a very noble act HS really when you look down and why, its is a big sacrifice on the mothers part may allah reward you dear ukti and i am so happy mashaAllah that your DH see's this, sometimes we need to hear it more often.

I noted their are alot of sisters facing turmoil at this time belive me you are not alone ukti. Enjoy the day each day as the dawn breaks and remember a new day , is a chance for need deeds.

hugs again ukti.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

ummi said...

Salam sister,

it was not so easy to brought up children these day either school or homeschool.

With homeschool, things do get more pile up. With routine to get done as you said, it does give us up and down feeling.

I'm too do feel like I'm on my own doing this. But, of course the greatest things our husband did is actually provide financial for us to continue homeschool. Even there's plenty things out side there, still we have to spend on homeschool instead of free education we should have for our children as we all pay tax.

But, the bless that Allah had gave us to homeschool is something that cannot get anywhere. We all have this question mark of are we doing good, or not and etc. But, I do believe every homeschool mum have big courage when they decide to start homeschool. It is not a small thing. It's a big challenge and it's not getting easier. Longer we been homeschool, they will be more challenge as kids getting bigger, challenge getting harder and we might as well, getting tired out. BUt, still there's a big strong gut there with us.

And Allah will always there to help us as he's the only one who know our intention.

Sofinee

um almujahid said...

as salamu alaykum

Ameen! It's not easy but rewarding insh'Allah!

I wrote something about us (women) at home here:

http://alahzab35.wordpress.com/2009/01/27/our-home-our-jihad/

un abbraccio ;)

muslimah trying to home edu said...

Assalamu alaykum sisters
how sweet of you all to stop by and just leave your very welcome comments to encourage me, show me your support and your experiences! So invalueble!
May Allah reward you all for your sincere heart, nasiha, kindness, love and support.Amin.

Sister Umm Raiyyan, not I was not expecting that phone call at all. trust me. Specially after I spoke to you, I was better but still feeling sad about the missing encoragement by dh. I was so amazed and felt so teary! I felt like if someone went to dh and spoke to him and told him about my sadness! Allah As'Sami'.

Sister Rainbow, barakallahu fiki for your sisterhood as in times like this it is so nice to have a shoulder to cry on. I like when you said (quoting) :'Some times we are passing life in a cloud of routine and not making time to nourish ourselves , we all need support from time to time and i am happy allah blessed you with carring sisters who can do just that' You are one of them sister and I appreciate it so much! Hugss xxx.

muslimah trying to home edu said...

Opps I deleted the rest of the post. Here it goes again.

Sister ummi,
(quoting):"I'm too do feel like I'm on my own doing this. But, of course the greatest things our husband did is actually provide financial for us to continue homeschool. Even there's plenty things out side there, still we have to spend on homeschool instead of free education we should have for our children as we all pay tax." Subhan'Allah ukhti you must have read my odysee with the local saturday school! But I won! I don't understand why in Uk there is not help for homeschoolers, we still been looked at like some kind of aliens! Ya Allah!

Sister Al Mujahid mash'Allah you made it! Didn't you leave another comment somewhere else in my blog, some time ago??
Comunque benvenuta!!
Jazakillah for sharing the article and insh'Allah I will enjoy reading your blog.
xxx

Wa alaykum assalam

Rainbow In The Grey Sky said...

muslimah trying to home edu said...
You are one of them sister and I appreciate it so much! Hugss xxx.

Aslamu alakum ukti
now you are making me teary eyed, group hugs.

um almujahid said...

as salamu alaykum

I don't remember... it might be :)