after my sad post few days ago, I received a touching email and a lovely phone call.
I feel blessed to have such sisters around. Hamdulillah Rabbi 'Alamin. Indeed to Him belongs the Heaven and the Earth and all that it contains. Mash'Allah!
I don't want to give up home education, it is not my real aim, nor it is a wish inside me. Far from that!! I wish to carry on as much as Allah will bless me with it.
I do feel very happy with home education and feel blessed that I can do it and that my kids are gaining so much.
Yes, I would love that things could be easier for me and kids. I would love that my dh is around more often to spent time with my kids and help a bit more even if only with doing shopping or run some errands for me.
But this is my test and as I have already said in reply to a sister I shall be strong and try to take one day at the time.
A sister called the day after I wrote that message , in fact she said she tried to call me all the day before just as I wrote the sad post but my mobile was off.
She stated so beautifully that I should live for today and it looks like a simple advice by a dear sister. But it was really what I needed and I appreciated her nasiha so much. I feel I have been ungrateful and also have I put my total trust in Allah? Islam teaches us to put our trust only in Allah, He is our Creator after all!! After the call I hugged my kids strongly just as the sister was advising me to do over the phone and I felt better as I could touch with my heart and my hands the love that Allah has for me and my family all. Jazakillah ukhti, you know who you are. Love fisabilillah to you.
I feel that things can only go better from now and I am recharging by teaching my kids and guess what? cooking!
Don't know why, don't ask! I hate cooking but these days helped me to relax and feel better about my life.
May Allah forgive me for being so ungrateful and may He guide me and my family to what is good, always.Amin.
Later that day I received another call. It was late evening and I was really tired. I looked at the phone screen and realized it was my dh id. I picked up. I don't know why, still I am here wondering, he said just a beautiful thing. He was saying how grateful he was that my kids are home educated and how happy he is that I can teach them at home. He recognized the fact that I have taken up a big challenge and that he is sorry he cannot be around to help. Allah As-Sami'.
It brought tears to my eyes and opened up a new way for me and my kids....Allah Al Fattah!!
Just to finish this post, I'd like to make a special du'as for all the sisters that want to home educate but cannot for their own personal tests, may Allah open a way for you and bring you relief from your hardships.Amin.
For those who you that are looking to start with home education, you will start something amazing and so many rewards and blessings are awaiting for you just around the corner! Don't be afraid to start or indeed to take up this challenge, put your trust in Allah and live for today.
Monday, 9 February 2009